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terminate and stay resident

i remember the day you kissed my hand in english class. i learned that day that i love the smell of lipstick. from time to time i still think of you.

you were my world but i don't believe we've ever met. i won't forget. i can't forget. i won't forget.

i wonder what you've done these years, how school has gone, how life has gone. do you remember how i wrote you books of horrid poetry? and how i dreamed of you every night for three long years?

you were my world but i don't believe we've ever met. i won't forget.

(ianj. yells)

today i heard your life hasn't gone that well. perhaps that's why you never returned my letters. but i still thought of you even though it's been so long. you were the pedestal others are measured against.

you were my world but i don't believe we've ever met. i won't forget.

vocals: don, ianj., iank.

the term "terminate and stay resident" is from the world of computing. roughly, it means a program quits but still uses up a hunk of memory (i think. don't quote me on it). i thought it was fitting for this song because i couldn't seem to get rid of the feelings i thought i felt for this person. but i seem to have this problem with creating an image in my mind of people that differs from the reality of that person. that's what this song is about, mostly. it's also about a specific person, whom i will not mention though you could probably deduce. we wrote this song after i heard some disturbing news about her. it seems she hasn't lived up to the image i created of her in my mind. this was quite unsettling for me for a few days after i heard it. i couldn't believe she would be this type of person, after being like a goddess to me for so long. but there isn't really a problem with her, the problem was all in my creating a picture of her that was untrue. i should have seen the signs of this before but i chose to ignore them in favor of evidence that supported my image of her. now that image of her has been erased. now she is gone.

--donnyb.

thank you.