It's easy to just look back. But it just brings despair and horrible dreams that wake me up at 3:35 in the morning. I can't think about why my phone rings but no one leaves a message. I can't dream about some sort of written note and slow dancing at some sort of function. It leads me down the path to a not awesome 2009.

I will not let you win. This is my awesome 2009, not another 2008.